SWEATING IT

TODAY, I SPENT THE DAY AT HOSPICE, AND WAS IN A REAL JIMENY CRICKET MOOD ALL MORNING. I DON'T KNOW WHY, I JUST COULDN'T STAND ANYMORE OF A CROWD, ALTHOUGH THERE REALLY WASN'T ONE, JUST A FEW OF US WHO LOVE BOBBIE JO. LIBBIE CHRISTIAN TOOK ME TO LUNCH, AND YOU KNOW, FOOD ALWAYS PUTS ME IN A BETTER MOOD. BOBBIE JO TOOK A TURN FOR THE WORST, AND SHE BEGAN TO FAIL. HER OXYGEN SATS WERE FALLING AND BY THIS EVENING, WE GOT REALLY WORRIED. LATER THIS EVENING, IT WAS APPARENT THAT SHE WAS SOON TO LEAVE US, AND WE CALLED IN THE FAMILY. BECKY CAME, AND SAID HER GOODBYES, AND WE WERE CERTAIN THAT THAT WAS GOING TO BE IT. WE WATCHED BMARTIN SPEAK SOFTLY TO HER, AND WAITED FOR HER FINALLY PASS. THEN, HER DAD CAME IN AND WENT TO HER BEDSIDE, HE BROKE DOWN AND CRIED AND CRIED, IT WAS SO HEARTBREAKING. ALL OF A SUDDEN, HER HEART RATE PICKED UP AND WE KNEW SHE KNEW THAT HER DADDY WAS THERE. HER HEART RATE STAYED UP FOR SOME TIME AND BEGAN TO FLUCUATE. THEN, SOMEONE SAID THAT OWEN HAD BROUGHT JAYBIRD UP TO SAY GOODBYE TO HIS MOM. WE WERE KIND OF UPSET, BUT THAT LITTLE BOY CAME BUSTING IN THE ROOM, AND WOULD HAVE IT NO OTHER WAY. THAT WAS THE MOST HEART WRENCHING MOMENT OF MY LIFE- SEEING JARED CRY OVER HIS MAMA. I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO JUST PASS OUT WITH GRIEF. SHE DID NOT REALLY REACT,BUT ALL OF A SUDDEN, SHE OPENED HER GOOD EYE AND SAID, "HI BABY". AND THEN CLOSED HER EYE AND WAS OUT AGAIN. TO ME IT WAS A TRUE MIRACLE, AS SHE DID NOT KNOW ANYONE AT ALL, NO MATTER WHAT WE DID. WELL, GUESS WHAT? S HE IS STILL GOING! IT IS LATE TONIGHT AND I HAD TO GO HOME, I WAS SO TIRED, AND MY DEAR NEPHEW DAVID CAME IN FROM CALIFORNIA TO SPEND THE WEEK WITH US TO HELP WITH THE CONSTRUCTION ON THE HOUSE. AT THIS TIME, BOBBIE JO IS STILL ALIVE. HER HEARTRATE AND OXYGEN ARE VERY UNSTABLE- I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE NIGHT WILL BRING. I HAVE PEACE, I AM SO READY FOR HER TO GO AND BE FREE OF PAIN. SHE WILL BE SO LOVELY ONCE AGAIN, AND ONE OTHER THING SAID TONIGHT WILL ALWAYS STAY WITH ME- HER SISTER, JESSICA, WHO HAD LOST HER LITTLE BABY IN DECEMBER SAID TO HER, "BOBBIE JO, YOU GO AND BE A MAMA TO MY MATTHEW, AND I WILL BE A MAMA TO YOUR JARED." HOW PROFOUND. READERS, PRAY FOR MY FAMILY AT THIS DIFFICULT TIME. PRAY FOR US TO HAVE PEACE AT HER PASSING, PRAY FOR HER TO UNDERSTAND WHY SHE PASSED OVER WHEN THE TIME COMES, PRAY FOR HER LOVING FIANCE MARTIN TO UNDERSTAND WHY THEY MUST BE PARTED IN THIS WORLD, PRAY FOR ALL OF US THAT WE MAY UNDERSTAND HEAVENLY FATHER'S WILL. I LOVE YOU ALL, NANASEE