THE TWILIGHT ZONE

YES, I FEEL LIKE I AM LIVING IN THE TWILIGHT ZONE. BEFORE I POST, I WANT TO THANK ALL OF YOU THAT HAVE LEFT COMMENTS. I DO FEEL SO MUCH BETTER WHEN I READ THEM, THEY UPLIFT ME. NOW, DOWN TO BUSINESS. WE WERE TOLD TO DAY THAT IF ANYONE COULD DONATE WHITE BLOOD CELLS, WE SHOULD FIND THEM IMMEDIATELY. IT SEEMS THEY DON'T STORE WHITE BLOOD CELLS AND MUST GET THEM FROM DONATIONS AS NEEDED. THE WHITE BLOOD CELLS ARE NEEDED TO FIGHT OFF INFECTION- AND SHE IS JUST UNABLE TO MANUFACTURE ANY OF HER OWN. I HAVE HAD WONDERFUL RESPONSE TO BLOOD DONATIONS, FORGIVE ME RYAN LEE, BUT I CANNOT REMEMBER THE TWO COMPANIES THAT ARE DEDICATING THEIR ANNUAL BLOOD DRIVE TO BOBBIE JO. BUT ON TOP OF THAT, WHITE BLOOD CELLS ARE A DIFFERENT DONATION ALL TOGETHER. ANYWAY, THE CALL GOES OUT, AND I KNOW THAT THE NEED WILL BE MET. TOMORROW, I GET TO WORK AT THE SCHOOL CARNIVAL. I HAVE THE HONOR OF WORKING AT THE BAKE SALE, COLLECTING MONEY. I WAS SO HAPPY TO BE ASKED TO DO THIS, I LOVE BEING A PART OF THE COMMUNITY. AND BEST OF ALL, IF THERE ARE ANY SEVEN LAYER BARS, I GET FIRST DIBS AT THEM! I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO DO MUCH WITH ELI AND JACOB LATELY, SO IT WILL BE FUN TO BE AT THE CARNIVAL WITH THEM. JAYBIRD WILL BE THERE TOO, SO AS A NANA, I HAD BEST STOCK UP ON CHANGE FOR ALL THE BOOTHS AND RIDES. LIFE IS SO WONDERFUL, IT SEEMS LIKE ONLY YESTERDAY THAT I WAS A PART OF THE CARNIVALS, AND BEING ROOM MOTHER FOR MY OWN CHILDREN. ONE ESPECIALLY SWEET MEMORY THAT I HAVE IS WHEN I WAS ROOM MOTHER FOR BOBBIE JO'S FIRST GRADE CLASS. IT WAS CHRISTMAS TIME AND I HAD COLLECTED THE FUNDS TO GO AND BUY THE GOODIES FOR THE PARTY. SOMEHOW, I ENDED UP IN A DITCH TRYING TO MISS AN ONCOMING CAR. I COULD'NT GET MY CLUNKY OLD SUBURBAN OUT NO MATTER WHAT I DID. ALONG CAME A WRECKER, AND THE DRIVER SAID, "LOOK LIKE YOU GOT SOME TROUBLE MA'AM- I SAID, "YES, BUT A QUICK PULL WILL GET ME OUT, AND I HAVE ALL OF MY CHILDREN WITH ME. (THE SUBURBAN WAS LEANING TO THE RIGHT AND THE KIDS WERE FRIGHTENED A BIT. THE WRECKER DRIVER SAID, " WELL, THAT WILL BE 12.50 TO PULL YOU OUT". WELL, I ONLY HAD 14.00 WITH ME AND MOST OF THAT WAS THE CHRISTMAS PARTY FUND. I SAID, "I ONLY HAVE THE CHRISTMAS PARTY MONEY FOR THE SCHOOL WITH ME, WILL YOU TAKE A CHECK?" HE LAUGHED AND SAID, "HELL NO, I GUESS THE CHRISTMAS PARTY IS CANCELLED, HUH?" UPON HEARING THAT, BOBBIE JO, (WHO WAS ABOUT 6 AT THIS TIME) CAME BURSTING OUT OF THE TRUCK SCREAMING, "YOU MEAN OLD TRUCK DRIVER! YOU AIN'T TAKING OUR PARTY MONEY. I AM TELLING SANTA CLAUSE ON YOU!" WELL, I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT MAN HAD THE FUNNIEST LOOK ON HIS FACE, TOLD BOBBIE JO, "PLEASE DON'T TELL SANTA ON ME, I WILL PULL YOUR MAMA OUT OF THE DITCH FOR FREE!" BOBBIE JO SAID, "I THINK IT IS TOO LATE, SANTA SEES EVERYTHING YOU KNOW. BUT MAYBE HE WILL OVERLOOK IT THIS ONCE AS YOU HAVE OFFERED TO MAKE IT UP". THE DRIVER LAUGHED AND SAID, "I HOPE SO, I HAVE BEEN WAITING ALL YEAR FOR A SPECIAL PRESENT" AND TURNED AND PULLED US OUT OF THE DITCH. IT IS SWEET MEMORIES LIKE THAT THAT HELP ME THROUGH TIMES LIKE THIS. ANOTHER TIME, WE WERE AT A SCHOOL CARNIVAL, AND BOBBIE JO WAS IN TEARS BECAUSE SHE HAD TRIED SEVERAL TIMES TO WIN SOMETHING ON THE SPINNING WHEEL OF FORTUNE. SHE TOLD HER DADDY THAT SHE JUST HAD TO WIN SOMETHING- SHE JUST HAD TO! BEHIND HER BACK, HER DADDY BOUGHT THE WHOLE WHEEL OUT, (IT WAS A DIME FOR EACH CHANCE) AND TOLD HER TO TRY ONE MORE TIME. SHE PUT HER DIME UP THERE AND SPUN THE WHEEL. TO HER SURPRISE, SHE WON THAT TIME! SHE WAS SO HAPPY, AND WAS THE PROUD OWNER OF A 3.50 CENT KAZOO! BY THE END OF THE DAY, I WAS READY TO THROW THAT THING IN THE TOILET! ANYWAY, EACH TIME I SEE A WHELL OF FORTUNE, I REMEMBER THAT DAY. OH, READERS, SHE IS SO VERY SICK. I HAVE LEARNED THE ART OF GULPING BACK TEARS. THE CHEMO IS TAKING A TOLL ON HER. HER TUMMY HAS GROWN TO THE SIZE OF A 9 MONTH PREGNANCY. SHE IS SWOLLEN AGAIN, AS LARGE AS BEFORE. SHE CANNOT TALK, FOR THE LACK OF BREATH. AGAIN, I FEEL LIKE I AM IN THE TWILIGHT ZONE. I AM AFRAID THE NEXT FEW DAYS WILL BRING HARD NEWS FOR US ALL. I CANNOT FEEL HER PAIN, I ONLY WANT HER TO HAVE SOME PEACE. NO MATTER WHAT THE DOCTOR SAYS TO HER, SHE SAYS, "I HAVE TO MAKE IT, I HAVE A SON AND HE IS EVERYTHING". SHE IS SO BRAVE AND STRONG, HER BROKEN BODY DOES NOT HOUSE A BROKEN SPIRIT. MORE TOMORROW, LOVE, NANASEE