AFTER HAVING SOME VERY DISCOURAGING THOUGHTS THESE LAST FEW DAYS, I HAVE RECEIVED A REVELATION THAT WILL KEEP ME ON A STRONG PATH. THESE PAST FEW DAYS HAVE BEEN SO HARD AS IT APPEARS THAT BOBBIE JO IS NOT IMPROVING, EVEN REGRESSING. I BEGAN TO QUESTION THE BLESSING GIVEN THAT SHE WAS TOLD THAT SHE WOULD SURVIVE. I BEGAN TO MAKE EXCUSES AS TO WHAT HEAVENLY FATHER COULD HAVE MEANT WHEN THE BLESSING SAID, "YOU WILL SURVIVE TO RAISE YOUR SON AND WATCH HIM GIVE YOU GRANDCHILDREN". I HAVE BEEN THINKING AND JUSTIFYING AND REALLY HAVING A HARD TIME, BECAUSE THE DOCTORS ARE NOT OPTIMISTIC AT ALL- AND ARE TAKING VERY EXTREME MEASURES TO KEEP HER ALIVE. WELL, TODAY, DURING SACRAMENT, I KEPT THINKING OF THE PHRASE, "FORGIVE MY UNBELIEF", AS THIS HAS BEEN GOING THROUGH MY MIND CONSTANTLY FOR SEVERAL DAYS. I LOOKED UP THE PHRASE IN THE SCRIPTURES AND GOT A WONDERFUL SUPPRISE-IN MARK, CHAPTER NINE, VERSES 23-29 IT SAYS,
JESUS SAID NTO THEM IF THOU CAN BELIEVE, ALL THINGS PRE POSSIBLE TO HIM THAT BELIEVETH.
AND STRAIGHT AWAY THE FATHER OF THE CHILD, (A CHILD WITH A TERRIBLE DISEASE) CRIED OUT SAYING "HELP THOU MINE UNBELIEF""
WHEN JESUS SAW THAT THE PEOPLE CAME RUNNING TOGETHER HE REBUKED THE FOUL SPIRIT SAYING UNTO HIM "THOU DUMB AND DEAF SPIRIT- I CHARGE THEE COME OF OF HIM AND ENTER NO MORE INTO HIM.
AND THE SPIRIT CRIED AND RENT HIM SORE AND CAME OUT OF HIM AND HE WAS AS ONE DEAD: INSOMUCH AS MANY SAID, "HE IS DEAD".
BUT JESUS TOOK HIM BY THE HAND AND LIFTED HIM UP AND HE AROSE.
AND WHEN HE WAS COME INTO THE HOUSE, HIS DISCIPLES ASKED HIM PRIVATELY "WHY COULD WE NOT CAST HIM OUT?"
AND HE SAID UNTO THEM, "THESE THINGS CAN COME OUT BY NOTHING SAVE PRAYER AND FASTING".
SO HERE IS A VERY ILL PERSON, WITH LIFE THREATENING DISEASE, AND HIS FATHER ASKED JESUS TO GIVE HIM THE POWER TO BELIEVE. HE SAID, "FORGIVE MINE UNBELIEF" JUST AS I HAVE BEEN DOING FOR SEVERAL DAYS. THE CHILD WAS PRONOUNCED AS DEAD, BUT JESUS TOOK HIM AND HEALED HIM. I TRULY BELIEVE THAT HEAVENLY FATHER LED ME TO THIS PASSAGE TO PROVE TO ME THAT HE DOES INDEED KEEP HIS PROMISES- AND I WILL FAST AS WELL AS PRAY FOR BOBBIE JO'S LIFE. I DO BELIEVE SHE WILL NOT DIE.
ALSO, TODAY AT CHURCH, IN RELIEF SOCIETY, THE DEAR SISTERS GAVE ME A QUILT THAT THEY HAD ALL WORKED ON. IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND I WILL CHERISH IT ALL OF MY LIFE. THIS COULD BE A VERY DARK TIME FOR ME BUT THE DISPAIR HAS LIFTED AND I FEEL SO VERY STRONG. I AM READY TO FIGHT AND WE WILL WIN. TILL TOMORROW, LOVE, NANASEE
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My dear Jody,
ReplyDeleteI have been following your blog from the bregining not quite knowing what to say. As I sat here reading your latest post with tears streraming down my face it hit me. This is going to be nothing more than a bump in the road. Bobbie Jo WIll be ok. She WILL fight this and win, she WILL live to see her son grow into a fine, good man, she WILL live to be old and grey surronded by her grandchildren. Bobbie Jo is one of the strongest people I have ever known (other than you of course).She WILL be ok. I believe this all of my heart and soul. I sit back and remember all those years ago when the kids were little watching Bobbie Jo ride Lux like a horse or watching her chase the turkeys around the back yard because they got out of their pen again or any one of a million other memories of raising our kids together I can't help but smile. We blended our families into one many years ago, we have so many wonderful, funny, sad and yes even frustrating memories that I know we have many many more years of memories to come. Though I don't get to see any of you nearly as often as I would like please know that I think about everyone all the time, I miss ya'll sooooo much but I love ya'll even more. Please know that all of you are in my thoughts, my heart and my prayers. I love you.
My thoughts and prayers are with all of you! The "Terms of Endearment" moment had me both laughing and crying at the same time. My heart goes out to you. Bobbi Jo and I are the same age and our son's are the same age it just seems impossible that she is going through this. Please let her know that I have been thinking about her and that I pray for her recovery every day.
ReplyDeleteAs always, ya'll are in our thoughts & prayers and I know of a sureity that God lives and loves us. The BOM is also true and is for us in these times. He has a plan, and your strength, strengthens us. All will be well, He has told you this..We will fast & pray with ya'll..I am wearing my lime green bracelet...We loveyall..linda & jorge..freezing in Chicago!!!!
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