THINGS ARE NEVER EASY

WELL, IN THE INTRODUCTION, I MENTIONED THAT THERE WOULD BE UPS AND DOWNS TO BOBBIE JO'S EXPERIENCE WITH LYMPHOMA. WE SEEM TO BE FACING A DIFFICULT TIME NOW, AS SHE IS HAVING TROUBLE KEEPING PLATELETS AND IS BLEEDING AT RANDOM AREAS. FOR INSTANCE, EVEN A BLOOD TEST KEEPS SEEPING AFTER THE NEEDLE IS OUT AND IF SHE BLOWS HER NOSE, IT CAUSES A NOSEBLEED. TODAY WE HAD TESTS ALL DAY, X-RAYS, ULTRASOUND AND THE MOST AWFUL A BONE MARROW BIOPSY. IT HAS BEEN SEVEN WEEKS SINCE WE BEGAN THIS JOURNEY, AND WHEN WE STARTED, SHE WAS SO ILL THAT IF SHE HAD NOT GONE TO THE HOSPITAL, SHE WOULD HAVE DIED WITHIN 3 DAYS. SO WE HAVE HAD A DIFFICULT TIME OF IT, BUT WE HAVE HAD SEVEN WEEKS MORE THAN WE WOULD HAVE. I AM FRIGHTENED. I WANT HER TO GET WELL. IS IT OKAY TO SAY THAT I AM FRIGHTENED? DOES THAT SHOW A LACK OF FAITH? OR IS IT JUST HUMAN NATURE? MARTIN TOLD ME THAT HE BET THAT DANIEL WAS PRETTY NERVOUS ABOUT THOSE HUNGRY LIONS IN THE LIONS DEN! I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I WOULD FACE THIS. BOBBIE JO LOOKED AT ME TODAY AND WHISPERED, "MOM I TOLD YOU SO" MEANING THAT SHE WOULD NOT DIE. SHE WILL NOT. I JUST HAVE TO BE STRONGER. THANKS FRIENDS AND LOVED ONES, FOR SHARING THIS JOURNEY WITH ME. LOVE, NANA